Start & Pause

Want to but I can't

2005-10-04T19:27:00.000+08:00

I really really want to cry.

My heart hurt so bad I think I'm gonna break.

But I can't cry.

And I can't let her go.

Help me to forget.Please.

Still Alive

2005-10-04T19:18:00.000+08:00

Sorry for have not been blogging for so long. Being a full time student is killing me. But I will survive. I am sure I will. How’s everyone been?

I am contemplating whether or not I should get a new cell phone. My little silver Nokia 3210 has gone crazy. Anyone can advise me on which phone is good and doesn’t cost more than RM300? Do a leave a comment, sir.

Berbicara Tentang Kita

2005-10-04T19:07:00.000+08:00

Aku
tidak menjanjikan
bulan dan bintang
buat kau
Atau
mengajak kau
ke sana
jauh sekali
Aku
di sini
hanya ingin
mengajak kau
berbicara
Kita berbicara tentang kita.

Forever

2005-09-29T16:00:00.000+08:00

Love i wasn't sure when, i wasnt sure how but i knew someday she'd find me...

Carring i never really had that, that connection,that feeling. Until she showed me what it was...

Feeling this is something that she has given back to me,i feel love and happiness and everything great i can'tstop feeling...

Smiling my cheeks hurt so bad but i can't help it, every time
we talk
i just have so much happiness, so much joy
i never want to ever let this go...

FOREVER i hope... i wish... i'll stay i'll try but forever is a really longtime....

in this world...

2005-09-27T18:42:00.000+08:00

all you need is love

all you need is someone that makes you feel great
makes you want to be the best you could be

love is the strongest feeling a human could ever have.
if you have it. don't ever let go.

sunyi malam

2005-09-27T10:04:00.000+08:00

jejak kita akan tercatat dalam sejarah perjalanan.
pada setiap persimpangan jalan akan senantiasa ada yang tertinggal.
walau hanya sekadar cerita tua.

i cry

2005-09-27T06:51:00.000+08:00

You said goodbye, I fell apart, I fell from all we had. To I never knew. I needed you so bad. You need to let things go I know, you told me so. I've been through hell. To break the spell. Why did I ever let you slip away. Can't stand another day without you. Without the feeling. I once knew. I cry silently, I cry inside of me, I cry hopelessly. Cause I know I'll never breathe your love again. I cry. Cause you're not here with me. I cry Cause I'm lonely as can be, I cry hopelessly Cause I know I'll never breathe your love again. If you could see me now, You would know just how, How hard I try. Not to wonder why I wish. I could believe in something new. Oh please somebody tell me it's not true (oh girl) I'll never be over you. If I could have you back tomorrow. If I could lose the pain and sorrow. I would do just anything. To make you see You still love me.

Dewa turun bermain

2005-09-27T06:16:00.000+08:00

aku ingat hari ini akan jadi baik, tapi dipertengahan, jadik mellow pula. melancholik sungguh. hidup aku bagai satu kisah panjang yang tiada noktah, makin lama, makin penuh dengan epik yang makin suram. dalam lawak jenaka yang aku hambur, terselit bunyi mendayu sedih dalam suara dan bait bait perkataan. siapa yang boleh sedar. siapa yang acap kenal rasa hati aku ini...

bermimpi sahaja. anganan bodoh. terlalu tinggi aku bermimpi...

manakan dewa kayangan mahu ingin turun bermain dengan manusia biasa di bumi kotor.

esok saja...

i've made a terrible mistake

2005-09-20T17:27:00.000+08:00

Current mood: sad

and now i feel like an idiot.....

im so childish

so gullible

so naive.

make it stop.

Seseorang...

2005-09-20T06:55:00.000+08:00

Pijak satu tanah, walau jauh, hati kosong, seorang.
Lafaz rindu cinta, perilaku tidak, hati kecewa, seorang.
Persoal kasih, percaya dan tidak, hati buntu, seorang.
Putus asa, kata putus, hati takut, seorang.
Hujung nyawa, seorang, seorang, seorang.

Huarghhhh... Ngantuk...

2005-09-20T06:16:00.000+08:00

I'm going KL again... As always, lepak kat Keramat. Got something to do,Boring...Last night, after talk with my old friend, an old friend of mine that I havent seen in 4 years, planned a meeting for us to meet up. apok brought along another old friend of mine, lepat. both from my x skool mate from Mrsm KOPU. Brought up a lot of fun memories. Best gak, surely fun when we talked about the old days. And also talked about the progress of others, some of it, you could reflect on your own life, right? It was a blast.

Still wondering how the hell I'm gonna get to Sri Kembangan on Thursday for meet with someone. Susah sangat when you dont have your own transport here, and SK is not my backyard la...

Wish me luck...

Peace up...

!

2005-09-20T06:05:00.000+08:00

i am happy!

Batal?!!

2005-09-19T22:50:00.000+08:00

I was supposed to have a tutorial this morning. Woke up quite late. Rushed to class. Arrived. Just to see a yellow post-it signed by Mr. Yunus pasted on the door. Batal. Kelas dibatalkan. Will be replaced on a date to be informed later. Fine then. Balik tidur. Omg, another class to attend. 2 p.m. Rushed again. Again. Batal, ustaz tak datang. Wtf?

By the way, go and watch Charlie and the Chocolate Factory. I didn’t realise how much I missed the Oompa Loompas until I went to see it last Saturday. Too bad they combined 2 books into 1 movie. Pathetic. Roald Dahl is definitely having nightmares in his grave.

Gots tah go. Tah-ta!

"Aku" inikah yang kau mahukan?

2005-09-19T22:17:00.000+08:00

...

Aku tetap aku.

A-K-U.Bukan! Ini bukan kisah ego. Bukan juga kisah bayangan yang melompat keluar dari cermin.

Ada orang pernah cakap, man is like a rubber band. Agaknya, kalau ditarik dan dilepaskan, ia melibas kuat. Sakit, beb! Betul, wa tak tipu! Tapi kalau selalu sangat ditarik, ia boleh hilang keanjalannya. Kendur.

Ha ha! Aku tau kau ketawa suka bila aku cakap pasal yang kendur-kendur. Apa yang tegang tu, dude?! Kau mengekek ketawa lagi. Menutup mulutmu. Menahan gelak yang hampir tersembur lagi. Muka merah menahan malu. Takut dituduh tidak siuman.

Atau mungkin tekak kau tiba-tiba terasa mual. Mahu muntah? Barangkali.

Hei! Ini cerita akulah. A-K-U.

Aku yang ini bukannya imej lelaki yang kau mahu lihat. Bukan! Bukan! Bukan! Bukan lelaki yang berjiwa muluk, berhati tulus, berkulit mulus. Aku adalah aku. A-K-U.

Berapa kali kau nak aku terangkan?! Aku bukan sang lelaki yang terbentuk dari tanah liat yang kau boleh uli sesuka hati. Bukan juga bayang lelaki yang kau renung di dalam mangkuk di rumah tok bomoh.

Bukan!

Bukan juga lelaki yang kau semua sorakkan bila ternampak di dada akhbar atau di kaca TV.

Hah! Bukan! Bukan! Bukan!

Kau bercinta dengan siapa sebenarnya? Dengan aku atau imej yang kau cipta yang kononnya itulah A-K-U?Kenapa susah benar kau mahu percaya, yang aku ini bukannya A-K-U yang kau selalu baca di sini. Bukan!

Ouch

2005-09-18T16:36:00.000+08:00

hik3.me tersilap paham
dengan apa yang dimaksudkan
dengan Team Member.tapi
nasib baik ofa tak marah.krkrkrk
hoiyeh..hoiyeh..

Maybe I'll lie a second time...

2005-09-18T14:06:00.000+08:00

I guess I am far from calculated or even privileged to say anything that’s other than on my mind.Scolded matter and issues I feel guilt for that don’t matter to anything except for an extra bag of trash.Scare away what I hold so dear; Scare away what skims the obvious.A man is sick so sincere, you see a later form, and I see a sick man.Tactics that don’t defend a position that renders a mannequin.Please share your rival; please share your pride…Throw your hands up high in an up rise matter.Ride the sofa like it’s your last; take a breath like it is your job.Everything so uniform and formulated, I want to see what makes you.Or better yet what breaks you.A feathered brick to the head of a sick man.Take up your torch, your marathon has ended.Take up your torch, your youth has ended.Start balding.Start recalibrating what is said.Maybe your re-pointed point will come across the other points.

Credit to ihateofa

2005-09-18T13:18:00.000+08:00

B'cos of her.
i got my own blog.
teng's dear.muahks.

Love & Respect

2005-09-18T13:17:00.000+08:00

Love and respect go hand in hand.
Respect without love is fear.
Love with out Respect is infatuation.

My Life

2005-09-18T13:04:00.000+08:00

People don't try to tell me how to live my life
Don't try to fill me up with false hopes and lies Show me the truth they say they'll show the light Don't try to tell me I'm wrong when I know I'm right Cause I don't need it, I don't need it, all I need is Choosin' my own way, choosin' my own way of life I'm mad as hell and I ain't gonna take it And if you think I am I think you're fuckin' mistaken Lock me in, but you can't lock me out You can cut off my tongue, but I'll still scream and shout Choosin' my own way of life-what up? Cause I'm choosin' my own way of life I'd rather have a penny than a heart of gold* I'd rather die young than do as I'm told* I was never one to turn down a fight I gotta sleep all day so I can rage rage rage all night Hell I don't need it, I don't need it, all I need is My destination is my own decision Living fast is my only religion Trust no one cause I'm no fuckin' fool Learn on my own I don't need no school Choosin' my own way of life-what up Choosin' my own way of life-straight out Choosin' my own way of life-ain't it my life
Choosin' my own way of life-and I don't need nobody else